Avoiding the obvious subject? Nah.
Well, things are going to move really fast from here. AP exams in a week or two, followed by Prom, a senior banquet, then graduation.
Then a brand new chapter in my life; the one I've looked forward too for ages, yet also feared deep down.
Well, I got rejected from the school I wanted to go - UCLA. And got accepted to every other college. Right now, after having visited the formal reception in Taipei, I'm planning to choose UC Irvine as my college. It's got mostly everything I wanted - lush and green, large sprawl of a campus instead of random buildings in a city, safe, and best of all - I know nobody going there.
Part of me dreads this. But hey, it had to come some day.
I really messed up here in TAS. I know I had the potential to be somebody greater. But I chose to laze around, game, waste time with people who were bullies, and consequently ended up freshman year of high school with 3 friends, and a not so good reputation.
And it didn't get any better. 9th to 10th grade were the peaks of my gaming spree. It's a wonder I managed to keep a 3.7 GPA with all the gaming I did. I barely got sleep, so I slept in classes, I was irritable all the time, didn't make much more more friends.
It was only until 11th grade that I finally came round, but by that time, the niches in my grade were solid. Rock solid. And I know I could have done way better had I chose not to game like a madman. I probably could have spent that time socializing and studying so that finals weren't so stressful.
But I still haven't learned my lesson. I went and flunked Japanese last year even though I knew the material. The night before the exam, I just gave up and gamed. And I received a D- for my hard work all year.
I still wonder, what happens if I had chosen to study, socialize, and be more active within the school community? Now, I want to do these kind of things, but it's a bit too late. And I know there is no point on reminiscing about the past that is now long behind me.
I hope that in college, I can turn a fresh leaf, and try again. This time, I know what are the right things to do. Instead of living next to the comp, I need to live life. And so far this year, I've been balancing that quite well - and I hope to be able to continue.
Won't be as active on DA during college I reckon. Occasionally, I might come on to do some commentaries on stories and write up something, and favorite some art.
I've come a long ways from the naive young child I was in 5th grade, when I first arrived in Taiwan. I hope those years I spent here in Taiwan are not forgotten. As painful and sad as some of those years were, they were integral in showing me the way I have chosen.
With that, ultra-formal journal concluded. Peace out~